words are the wisdom.

yum.

2012-02-07T01:50:00.000-07:00

Hunger Games

2012-02-05T20:58:00.002-07:00

Team Peeta!

Kill Kill

2012-02-05T19:01:00.000-07:00

I'm love with a dying man.

A&J

2012-02-05T18:42:00.000-07:00

YACHT

2012-02-03T02:14:00.001-07:00

March 6.
Who's with me?

Gl.asses.

2012-02-03T01:46:00.002-07:00

Lanvin happy.

Sara and I, UVU glass elevator.

2012-02-01T23:35:00.000-07:00

It happened.

2012-01-30T03:23:00.000-07:00

I'm not going to erase you, rather, embrace you. Embrace the memories, the good and bad.

2012-01-30T03:00:00.000-07:00

Picture Puke

2012-01-30T02:29:00.001-07:00

Eat Pray Love

2012-01-30T02:02:00.002-07:00

Now I just need to read the book!

I decided I want to go on a movie binge.

Starting this movie binge was Eat Pray Love. OH MY GOSH! I absolutely loved the movie. Not only did in reinforce my desire to travel, but I got a lot out of it.

(My blurb of notes from the movie. Quotes, thoughts, etc.)

Everything falls apart, the only permanent thing in life is family.

I realized how so important is it (and okay) to have time to myself. Time to just BE myself and learn about myself and to have to deal with myself.

Dolce far niente - the sweetness of doing nothing. Beautiful isn't it?

"Miserable but happy to not be apart. We all want things to stay the same. We settle because we are afraid of change, of things crumbling to ruins. However, ruin is a gift, ruin is the road to transformation."

"I know you feel awful, but your life is changing.. That is not a bad thing."

Oh Katut:

"To lose balance for love is part of living the balance of life."

"To have a broken heart means you have tried for something."

An Icon Indeed

2012-01-26T22:36:00.002-07:00

Photoshoot with Style Icon NICK WOOSTER from Matt Barnes on Vimeo.

Mmm mm Duncan

2012-01-26T22:28:00.000-07:00

Met these boys at UVU

FEISTY

2012-01-26T22:21:00.000-07:00

Geranium Killer

2012-01-23T18:44:00.000-07:00

oh the sweet singing of song.

7habits Reading

2012-01-23T01:03:00.001-07:00

"What you are shouts so loudly in my ears I cannot hear what you say."
"into the hands of every individual is given a marvelous power for good or evil-the silent, unconscious, unseen influence of his life. This is simply the constant radiation of what man really is, not what he pretends to be."

Birdy

2012-01-17T20:28:00.001-07:00

God knows what is hiding in those weak and drunken hearts, guess you kissed the girls and made them cry.
God knows what is hiding in those weak and sunken eyes, giving love but getting nothing back.

Must learn on piano.

random thoughts of today

2012-01-17T00:24:00.003-07:00

Today I learned through the holy spirit the importance of sacrifice. God wants to bless us and gives us opportunities every single day so that he may do so. If we choose to put him first and make sacrifices (sometimes the sacrifice greater than others) he will bless us x10 of that which we sacrificed.

Let your hope make you glad. Be patient in time of trouble& never stop praying. Romans 12:12

Movies to See

2012-01-15T14:59:00.003-07:00

Personal 'Must See'
50/50
Like Crazy
The Ides of March
The Rum Diary
Man on a Wire
The Vow
Fantastic Mr. Fox
& Life Aquatic (to finish the Wes Anderson Films)
No Country For Old Men

For my own guilty pleasure:
The September Issue
No Strings Attached
Brides Maids
Rio
Amelie

Movies to anticipate:
Moonrise Kingdom
The Great Gatsby
The Perks of Being a Wallflower
The Hunger Games
Titanic 3D? You better believe it.

2012-01-15T09:22:00.001-07:00

If dreams are really a representation of our subconscious thoughts then I sure do hate my sub conscience.

BFF nuff said.

2012-01-13T01:24:00.001-07:00

Past Due

2012-01-13T00:24:00.000-07:00

Margarita Has a Strange Appeal

2012-01-12T23:57:00.002-07:00

She found her courage in a change of scene

2012-01-10T22:23:00.002-07:00

We as humans are lost and confused creatures. Influence spawns the seeds of uncertainty. Doubt the weight too dense to overcome. Love becomes a meaningless tender obscurity. Pain to keep you conscious through the numb. Trust symbolic of regret. Tears to keep the sanity. Anger for lack of better emotion. Severance to gain a hopeful outlook. Perseverance to achieve some form of peace.

n i n e t e e n .

2011-12-04T01:59:00.006-07:00

I had the most incredible incredible birthday. I am so blessed to have the wonderful people that I do in my life. I feel so happy and content. My heart is so full of gratitude. I appreciate the love, care and appreciation others expressed to me today, it meant the world to me.

Thank you to all.
love love love love you.

a faint taste in my mouth

2011-10-30T23:32:00.000-06:00

hoppy hollowoon.

2011-10-23T02:45:00.019-06:00

okay, melt my heart.

2011-10-13T00:08:00.001-06:00

nick+maria • england wedding from Paperback Weddings on Vimeo.

ST VINCENT

2011-10-06T19:50:00.002-06:00

I have been on the ultimate St. Vincent kick as of late. Her newest album is incredible.
first and foremost

For me, this is the most relate-able cover of this song. It definitely hits home. She is so somber. You can feel her emotion so strongly throughout.

I want her entire wardrobe throughout this video.

Okay, no. I just want to be her.

Ending on a good note.

These days

2011-09-21T00:52:00.003-06:00

I had a lover I don't think I'd risk another these days.

ch-ch-check it.

2011-08-22T23:25:00.000-06:00

theebirdseye.blogspot.com

Washington Irving

2011-08-08T11:42:00.000-06:00

'There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief...and unspeakable love.'

If it's real true and pure

2011-08-08T11:25:00.001-06:00

Never give up.
If you can't stop dwelling on it
Never give up.
If you have a pure desire
Never let it go.
If your head tells you to give up and let go but your heart gives you hope
Follow your heart.
If you feel it with everything you have
Never give up, never let it go.

With time and faith all things fix.

lindisfarne

2011-07-20T01:55:00.003-06:00

For some reason this song and video combination bring out strong emotion in me.

alex and katie

2011-07-03T01:15:00.001-06:00

perfect representation.

I miss him more than anything.

I laugh every time I read this.

Senior Photos

2011-05-29T20:42:00.004-06:00

It took me way too long to make the announcements, ohma goodness.

a big big thank you to Kristi Pemberton

glo.msn.com

2011-05-22T01:02:00.000-06:00

Today has been a really good day. I enjoyed most of what happened today and I'm growing more and more at peace with everything. I have the best most supportive helpful cousins in the world. We had a fun fun time at 'The World Didn't End Party.' and had a good laugh HUA HUA HUA HUA! I got home and found this article so I figure why not take what I can from it? For all you strugglin' teens here ya go.

What We Wish We Knew As Teens

You can't always control what happens in your life, but you can control how you react to it. And it's in those moments that you get to figure out who you are—and how much it matches up with who you want to be.
It’s easy to forget to have fun with it all and to simply accept that there is a plan in place for you. Don’t get caught up in the stress of it all.
Forget about dating your “type.” You'll keep getting stuck with the same guy over and over again, only in slightly different packages. Instead, give yourself the chance to be surprised by someone who is a "type" you had never considered before — one you may not have even known existed.
Allow Yourself to Be Pursued. "Don't chase boys. It never works out if you are the one doing the pursuing."
Just Breathe.

2011-05-11T10:46:00.000-06:00

I've learned the importance of living without expectations and being open minded. To just enjoy situations. To not get bugged or bothered when things don't go the way you had expected. It complicates things if we choose to let it affect us and once we make that decision it changes everything for the worse because of a negative attitude. Be strong. Enjoy life as it happens. Choose to be happy and grateful for all you have and all that you are. If we are confidant in ourselves and in situations which we are placed we learn to grow and we better ourselves to become stronger happier and more blessed people. And for that I'm so grateful.

ADELE'S NEW ALBUM

2011-04-28T00:02:00.000-06:00

is amazing.
it makes me miss dancing more than anything in world.
such a good outlet.

it's so relatable.
especially right now.

sneeeeeeeeakaa..............

2011-04-27T23:41:00.003-06:00

ttack.

2011-04-24T02:22:00.002-06:00

high, on life.

2011-02-21T14:37:00.000-07:00

After two and a half days in Josie's basement I think it's safe to say we lost our sanity.
legitmately. We intoxicated the newsfeeds of facebook. with our hourly updates. I have the most amazing cousins in the whole world. suckit.

lemon bars
double jeopardy
more lemon bars
couch
big talk before breakfast, tears and relief
crepes
CABIN FEVER HIT
kinky twister
facebook
dance party
five minute break
birth picture
hamburger helper, no thanks.
the venture of leaving our little hell hole
crunk driving to Adrienne's
biig big house drive
back to the hell hole
new batch of lemon bars, with ice cream this time
PCC came out to play
"GOOD ANSWER DEWD"
got exactly what we wanted
bath tub & cupcakes, dreamy
back to sleep
breakfast
ecoli fingers.

I would definitely rate this #1 weekend in quite some time.
everything is better with cousins. I love mine, more than anything in the world they are incredible.
and that's that.

KE$HA

2011-02-21T14:28:00.003-07:00

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Got $leazy.

2011-02-19T04:18:00.002-07:00

KE$HA exceeded all expectations, ten folds. absolutely incredible. She was so entertaining and had such an insane energy. ah. Loved it. Kam and I were with the funnest people, Cole and Austin they know how to party haha. After the show, while walking to our car that we couldn't seem to find anywhere my inner crazy came out, dancing all up on cars like a freak, doin how I do. We ended up pulling people out of their cars and started a parking lot dance party, while bumpin ke$ha. Note: there was a transvesdite in the mix. I have never danced as hard in my entire life as I did tonight. I've always known dancin' was my niche but tonight really proved that and maybe it was my killer outfit mixed with my dancing. I literally had people come up to me and say "okay, we HAVE to get a picture with you!". I also noticed people taking pictures from inside their cars. I WAS DANCING LIKE A MANIAC, but with mad $teeze. It felt so good. Once I got home I had a fun visitor. I feel so blessed to be who I am and to have the incredible people I do in my life.

more on ke$ha soon, too tired to finish.

GET SLEAZY.

For All Those Valetine's Kids.

2011-02-15T00:45:00.002-07:00

For the lovers, the ex lovers, the crushes, the just friends, the best friends, the secret loves, the lost cause, and the hopefuls:

Happy Valentine's day!

here's to having what we all want.

'A loving heart is the beginning of all knowledge.'

Affection is responsible for nine-tenths of whatever solid and durable happiness there is in our lives.
C. S. Lewis

Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love.
Albert Einstein
I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.
Daphne Rae

Immature love says: 'I love you because I need you.' Mature love says 'I need you because I love you.'
Erich Fromm

2011-02-13T19:42:00.003-07:00

mmhm.

and i want this dress.

you may call me david

2011-02-08T01:01:00.001-07:00

Joselyn and I make a good team.

I love her to pieces

and I look up to her more than she can imagine

I am so lucky

so grateful

so blessed

♥

Hang me, oh hang me.

2011-02-08T00:55:00.001-07:00

Everyday,

2011-02-02T13:07:00.000-07:00

"I believe this is going to be a wonderful day. I believe I can successfully handle all problems that will arise today. I feel good physically, mentally, emotionally. It is wonderful to be alive. I am grateful for all that I have, for all that I now have, and for all that I shall have. Things aren't going to fall apart. God is here and he is with me and he will see me through. I thank god for every good thing."- Norman Vincent Peale

thank you miss sara.

2011-01-28T17:20:00.000-07:00

"If someone prays for patience, do you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?"

If we strive to be better or to gain or learn or receive something we don't already, we ask. God isn't going to give us exactly what we ask for. that wouldn't be a real gain. He gives us something better, opportunity. The opportunity to grow and gain and learn and receive. If we ask, god will give us opportunity. It is then up to us to take action, to actually progress and prove ourselves, and our potential, not only to him but to ourselves.

I just watched Evan Almighty.
hahaha.

2011-01-26T18:50:00.001-07:00

We are not the same person this year as last; nor are those we love. It is a happy chance if we, changing, continue to love a changed person.

-thank you, i love you.

foood

2011-01-19T13:38:00.002-07:00

Oh what I wouldn't do,

2010-12-21T01:27:00.001-07:00

If I had you babe, if I had you.

love,

love love love.

invicible:

2010-12-12T00:55:00.027-07:00

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

i n s p i r e.

2010-12-12T00:31:00.003-07:00

There is no force on earth more powerful than the will to love.

This movie reminded me of the importance to love, and to appreciate those who love us. It helped me to know we all have immense strength within us, that at some points in our lives we can nearly grasp. Learn to push through hard things, with trial we grow. Gratitude isn't to be taken for granted.
Show love,
live to love.

♥

2010-12-10T00:22:00.000-07:00

trust is fragile.

you give your heart, all of yourself, entrusting it to someone else.
hoping and praying. feeling.

trust is taken for granted, some blinded and don't see it's worth.
learning to trust, to give trust, when trusting has hurt you so many times before.
it's a hard thing to do.

I am.

2010-12-05T01:32:00.001-07:00

After eighteen years I feel confident in saying I'm proud of who I've become. I'm grateful for all the people who have helped me supported me loved me and influenced me in the past eighteen years.
I'm grateful for my life,
for decisions I've made.
I've grown immensely and learned an awful lot, continuously.
life is such a precious thing.
h a p p y b i r t h d a y!

mark my words.

2010-12-01T01:06:00.001-07:00

NYC? Word.

2010-11-11T23:50:00.001-07:00

I'm trying to convince myself that this is really really REAL! This time tomorrow I'll be making my way to only the most wonderful place on earth.. or so I've been told. I'm ready to experience NEW YORK CITY! It's so surreal. I can only imagine what it will be like, fantasize it. And yet somehow I can manage to believe the real thing will beat out any high expectation I may have. I've never been more ready for anything in my life. Ahh a lovely vacation with the people dearest to me.. My mom my sister my cousins and my aunts. Truly couldn't get any better.
New York, I'll be seeing you soon.
G'night!

2010-10-06T22:32:00.008-06:00

Soile
uniqUe

moN homme

alwayS

Heart

I ♥ you.

Now & forever

optimistE

2010-09-13T00:37:00.002-06:00

"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have."

"happiness is not the absence of problems, but the ability to deal with them."

It's a new week.
I am going to make the best of it.

Oh the feeling.

2010-09-08T23:22:00.008-06:00

Oh well I look at you and say
It’s the happiest that I’ve ever been
I feel all pretty happy too
I’m always pretty happy when I’m just kicking back with you.

Love love love

All through our bodies

yup.

2010-08-11T01:08:00.001-06:00

Force vs Flow

2010-08-07T04:16:00.009-06:00

Weeks have been passing,
after a lot of hard things
I've learned a lot.

A shift in focus.. on change.
Forcing and flowing

I often find myself axiously trying to make things I seem to want happen, happen.
I am focusing on letting situations figure themselves out, letting things flow.
At various times throughout the day I can hear myself thinking "flow: have confidence"
let things work themselves out. Because they will in the best way possible.

Karma

2010-07-31T01:09:00.003-06:00

I believe I deserved the good day I had.

g'night.

THE CHAIN

2010-07-14T13:48:00.008-06:00

i am

dedicating my day

to this.

scooterides.

2010-06-24T22:26:00.009-06:00

he's my man,
'Nuff said.

CALIFORNIA

2010-06-19T01:35:00.010-06:00

i love my family.

answer me this.

2010-06-16T00:52:00.004-06:00

I don't understand how people work sometimes.
why do girls, or people in general, make up lies to spite you when you've done nothing to wrong them?
perhaps it's jealousy?
what makes people feel the need to be fake?
maybe it's insecurity?
what makes a persons views or feelings towards something change?
sometimes a slow gradual change,
maybe an ah-ha! moment,
other times maybe people covince you otherwise?
why do we love certain people, but others we feel quite the opposite?
how is that sometimes we just want to be someone else, when we all are exactly that.
why do we try to follow others or be like other people when we aren't.
our lives different from theirs.

what makes us care too much about others views on who we are, or what their idea of us is?
why we think we need to clairfy it to other people.

who came up with the idea of "you're inferior to me"
no one is, so who felt they were so incredible to be above all else?

why do people cut themselves short of their full potential?

just a few questions on my mind today.

Oh Albert,

2010-06-03T21:39:00.002-06:00

Any intelligent fool can make things bigger and more complex... It takes a touch of genius - and a lot of courage to move in the opposite direction.

Everyone should be respected as an individual, but no one idolized.

God may be subtle, but he isn't plain mean.

Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination will take you everywhere.

No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it.

Once we accept our limits, we go beyond them.

Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile.

Few people are capable of expressing with equanimity opinions which differ from the prejudices of their social environment. Most people are even incapable of forming such opinions.

Strive not to be a success, but rather to be of value.

The only source of knowledge is experience.

True religion is real living; living with all one's soul, with all one's goodness and righteousness.

mind

2010-06-03T13:09:00.007-06:00

Over the past few days I've really been humbled.
I realized how important it is to think before you speak.
words can often get jumbled with wrong meanings annnnd
it never is good.
I am realizing how important it is to be conscious of other peoples feelings
especially in what you say and how you act.
It is so important to show gratitude towards others
do unto others as you would want done unto you, right?
I'm going to try to change my mindset
I want to be more aware of what I say and how it will affect people and situations.
I am a grateful person,
though I find I need to show my gratitude more openly.
I know I will feel better if I am a more willing and a more grateful person.
I want others to feel appreciated as I want to be.
I want to do all that I can for other people.
I want to be able to make people feel better about themselves,
feel happy.

LOCAL: natives

2010-06-02T01:05:00.004-06:00

such an amazing show.
truly talented artists.

Elaine,

2010-05-26T21:46:00.004-06:00

I love you,
I'm grateful for the example you have set for everyone who knows you.
I'm grateful for your knowledge and undying faith.
I'm grateful for all that you have done for our families, you're the glue that holds us all together.
thank you for all of your service.
you are truly an incredible woman.

Thank you for falling in love with such a handsome young man, you two have been the hugest blessing, and the perfect example. I pray one day I'll find a boy who loves and adores me as much as grandpa does you.
you've blessed me with an amazing mother whom I love incredibly, thank you.
you've blessed me with the most incredible cousins anyone could ask for, I'd be lost without them.

I cannot thank you enough for living your life the way you have, I'll be forever grateful to you.

thank you for being so loving
and giving us all good reason to laugh.
you're stories are the best.
you're an incredible role model

thank you thank you thank you
although this is hard and scary for all of us,
it has brought our family closer together and made us all stronger.

i love you grandma.

you're in my prayers.

Fever,

2010-05-11T15:13:00.007-06:00

If I had a heart I could love you
If I had a Voice I'd Sing.

waiting for a war.

2010-05-09T22:03:00.004-06:00

when you truly want something, you fight for it.
when you desire to do something, you do it.
when you want love, you give your heart.
when you want happiness, you give yourself.
when you want change, you pray.
when you want inspiration, you find it.
when you lose something dear, you mourn.
when you truly want something, you fight for it.
giving up the gun.

it takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.

2010-05-03T00:22:00.001-06:00

blessings are trials in a trying hard disguise.

goodness g r a c i o u s

2010-04-19T23:17:00.004-06:00

it's good to have options.
good to make choices
good to follow your heart
good to listen
to others, to your self, your soul,
feel what's real what's good.
good to have an opinion
good to have confidence
good to be proud
good to be humble
good to step out, stay out.
good to like, good to grow, good to love, many.
good to dream, believe
good to grasp
good to learn.

fool, love.

2010-04-04T03:14:00.000-06:00

It's been so long since I've been alone
I can't think of a time when you were in line, here breathing by my side
my mother said to talk things through
don't let heavy hearts pile up on you
but how can I when I'm too scared to speak
I cried all night
but I put in too much to turn away now, I've been waiting for you to say that I'm better off with out you anyway
but we both know that that's just a lie
but what's said is done

we're almost gone
I can't see your face
I can't find my way
I can't catch a break
I can't count the days
Everyone looks the same.

2010-03-20T18:17:00.000-06:00

Oh my friends I've
begun to worry right
where I should be grateful
I should be satisfied

Oh my heart I
would clap and dance in place
with my friends I have so
much pleasure to embrace

But my heart is
returned to sister winter
but my heart is
as cold as ice

Oh my thoughts I
return to summertime
when I kissed your ankle
I kissed you through the night

All my gifts I gave everything to you
your strange imagination
you threw it all away

Now my heart is
returned to sister winter
now my heart is
as cold as ice

All my friends, I've
returned to sister winter
all my friends, I
Apologize, apologize.

2010-03-20T01:54:00.000-06:00

don't let insecurities get you down.
exude confidence,
ownn it.

World Travels

2010-03-11T18:51:00.001-07:00

one day i'm going to travel,
all over the world.
with a cute love.

i'm going to live in a foreign country and experience culture.

anxious to experience.

st. lucia
italy
thailand
spain
dubai
greece
austrailia
brazil
france
egypt

oh i cannot wait, for the beauty i've yet to embrace.
so much to do so much to see, oh the fond memories.
i cannot wait for my eyes to be opened in ways they haven't, to feel things i haven't. to do things yet to be done.
thank you god.
for the beauty you've created.

2010-03-10T19:27:00.000-07:00

while sitting in arc this afternoon I had plenty of time to think, to let my mind wander and explore as I continued to read NVPeale's marvelous words.

I had a thought as I read about how we must believe, with all of ourselves.
there is great power in faith. If we trust in god and believe, never doubting or giving up, we will achieve and receive many great blessings and come to find if we simply put our faith in him knowing it will work out to the best, that it really will.
eliminate worry.
anxiety.
fear.
I imaged myself handing the lord my faith. God, I say, I know I can do this I know I'm strong enough. Thank you for strengthening me and giving me trials that I may be blessed and become a better, happier person. I know with your love help and support this will work its self out. for the best.
it will work out.
all of it.
I believe it.

Norman.

2010-03-09T19:00:00.000-07:00

"Throw your heart over the fence and the rest will follow."

give it a go.

2010-02-23T17:43:00.000-07:00

There is a lesson to be learned here,
I'm learning mine.

As for you,
you've yet to learn anything.

let go

let go

let go.

sincere qualms.

2010-02-22T11:44:00.001-07:00

is it better to love and let go? even with genuine concern?
or to fight for what you want, what you love, even if what you want is buried under so much.
do you fight for it by standing by and waiting, even if it kills you inside, until it surfaces?
that you might bring it back to it's highest quality?
or do you learn to let go, learn to get by.
trying to accept it.
swollowing your words, your help, your love and concern.
letting it all slowly and all too passively pass away to be bitter and left feeling empty.

how are we to know what exactly to do?
how do we cope?

does distance heal?
or time,
or space?
do you take action, or painfully let it drift away?
what's for the better? truly?

god, please help me.

2010-02-08T22:23:00.000-07:00

Happiness: is equanimity.
a state of complacency.
a feeling of peace and ease,
a pure smile.
happiness is in the way we view anything, everything.
the divinity others lay upon us, we gently enfold upon ourselves.
we allow others to determine our happiness, some cases we cannot help it.
we leave such a fragile vulnerable piece of ourselves open to others.
blessed are we.

happiness is contentment in who you are, and in what you believe;

we are all strong beings.
we all contain power to determine happiness.

i believe
we face misery to become immune:
to negativity, discontentment, selfishness; to loss.

"You are never defeated until you accept the image of defeat."

we are greater than any challenge we face.

we learn to grow. to become stronger beings. to reach peace,
to reach happiness.

if we only could comprehend the glorious capabilities we possess.

oh this day.

2010-02-02T20:53:00.000-07:00

today i feel the need to express something at very least.
although i'm not sure what it is i feel the need to express,

today i've realized i take things for granted.
so today i express gratitude.

i'm grateful for good health, you never really can appreciate it until it's not all quite there.

i'm grateful for music.from which majority of my inspiration comes.

i'm grateful for my family; my parents are incredible. my brothers i love. all fulfill their brotherly roles, i appreciate you. sister, truly my best friend, what more is there to say? you mean the whole world and more. and the little one so innocent and darling. you're such a great example, i adore you.

i'm grateful for my cousins. my four, that keep me purely and truly happy no matter what the situation. through so much we've been and so much we will continue to go. they are my better halves, all four of them.

i'm grateful for uplifting words, words that give my mind peace, and inspiration.

i'm grateful for random happenings. specifically this day through people.

i'm grateful for opportunity.

i'm grateful for my boy. every thing has changed, and continues to change, yet through it all i have him, and for that i'm grateful, for exactly who he is. mm my boy.

i'm grateful for friends a specific three come to mind. all at very different stages, all so unique and special to me, and each this day have made it sincerely better.

thank you.

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.

2010-01-26T21:03:00.000-07:00

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;
-Alexander Pope, "Eloisa to Abelard"

a beautful poem.
an incredible movie was inspired by this poem
"Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind"

"which do you prefer to be?"

This is the most interesting movie I have seen in a while.
In this movie memories, namely bad ones, could be erased.

What a world of confusion, and loss. To know and love, to feel and remember, to know.
And then to not.
What a world, to have a spotless mind, constant sunshine of course. Not having to cope or overcome to feel or to be aware. To painlessly erase. a brief moment of impulse, wishing this. then to realize, quickly. hiding memories, anywhere. everywhere. I don't really want to lose them. I was hurt. Don't leave me. Don't let me forget. Don't let it be gone. one day deja vu presents itself. however, you HAVE lived this before, you simply don't remember. Don't let this beauty pass, find your way back to me, in my memory. For you, I simply wish not to forget. I would not be who I am today, without the influence that you were to me. Who am I then? to simply erase you from me, what would that leave me then?

dont go.

black & blue

2010-01-21T17:14:00.002-07:00

today i like this.

this music video:

this music,

not to mention the cute old man.

lovely, lovely.

a not so great day.

2010-01-17T17:23:00.000-07:00

artificial conversations
confusion
discouraged.
disappointment
adjusting.

Dancing
entertainment
excitement.

and then.. my car got towed.
$160 dollar fee.
yiiikes.

but then the eagle mountain gang brought me back to a better state.

so you are saying we could be up there.. with THEM?
NOBODY SCREW THIS UP FOR ME.

adoration,
contentment.

maybe not the best day, but i learned a lot.

Birthday Party in SLC

2010-01-10T23:02:00.002-07:00

over the weekend Samuel hosted his birthday party at his father's apartment in SLC.
it was such an entertaining night. Jimbo made a montage of our night. props to him.

you make my dreams

2009-12-30T13:26:00.000-07:00

how great is this?
honestly?
i love.

s u r v e y says:

2009-12-29T14:48:00.002-07:00

What are you listening to right now?
placiticities- andrew bird.

What was the last thing you ate?
a popsicle, mm

Favorite TV show?
teen mom, the office, the bachelor.

Siblings?
mckay nate kamrie jake karlie

Favorite Holiday?
christmas of course.
halloween as well.

Month?
December

What was the last movie you watched?
this is it.- michael jackson is amazing

Hugs or Kisses?
both.

Chocolate or Vanilla?
chocolate please.

What books are you reading?
positive imaging
hopefully kite runner soon
any other suggestions?

Favorite movies?
too many.

what were you doing before this?
taking a bath. mmm

Favorite flower?
orchid

Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex?
ehh, friends
Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
haha yes, i am.

Do you have a Tattoo?
nope.

diamonte

2009-09-16T12:02:00.000-06:00

i'm not the best with words, but for an english assignment we had to write a diamonte poem. i liked it.

Dreams
Delightful, imaginary
Sleeping, wishing, envisioning
Subconsciously waking to realize and remember
Alive, awake, aware, experiencing
Actual and conscious
Reality

blog post number one

2009-08-26T12:04:00.000-06:00

this is my first blogging experience, how exciting.
i've always wanted to blog, however when it comes down to it..
what do you blog about?
what are you supposed to say?
luckily it was a requirement for a class so that gave me the boost i needed.
hopefully i get the hang of it.
wish me well.